The Shattered Mirror.

Did we ever consider that the broken mirror can be a whole again?

Or maybe we are more concern about the crack that left rather than about the mirror that reform?

Lets put the shattered glass together again, shall we?

So that I could see an image of myself again, not 2, and not 3. Not even thousand!

To make sure I can still see myself from a perspective.

And I don't have to move myself left and right, to fit my whole image into the broken glass.

Even so, I still couldn't fit my whole self into all of the shattered glass either.

But why the mirror was broken at the first place?

Was that a rock thrown that directly hit the mirror?

Or was that resonance that vibrates the mirror so violently that shattered all the glass away?

Or was that the pieces were too old to hold themselves together and suddenly broken away?

I don't have a clue or a glue. I wish I had.

Does it makes any different for now?

As the shattered glasses were swept away, by the wind of time?

I want to catch every pieces of it, keep it in a safe place. Until the time I had the glue.

But it were broken glasses for God's sake. Hurting myself more if I try to catch it.

Don't worry, the story does not end here. Same goes to the sadness.

Here come the sad part.

I don't remember how I look like in those mirror.

To rephrase that, I don't remember when the last time I look through the mirror.

I sometimes don't notice the mirror was there.

I don't clean them from dust, put them up to be seen.

I walked through the mirror back and forth, without stopping to appreciate it.

One day, it shattered away.

Speechless? I am. Crying? Done that.

It just because I don't appreciate it when its there!

Talking about past wasn't doing any good, right?

The mirror will not resemble again despite the words and tears.

So lets talk about reality.

I have shattered glasses everywhere, that seems hard to be resembled.

Maybe it's good to leave it that way.

or trying to find the clue and live with it.

or trying to find the glue and put it together.

It doesn't seem easy in near future though.

Finding a new mirror? No it is irreplaceable.

No definite solution might best describe the situation.

That's fine for now, I'll live with it.

La Tahzan, Innallaha Ma'ana.

It's a race. Between you and me!

So today, I had a thought to graduate early from RIT. I wrote it on twitter and it became a breaking new! Yes it is. At least 6 friends replied back to me on twitter. Then we had been replying to each other about that thing.

The breaking new! 

 If I graduate early, I can find the job earlier that everyone else in my batch. I called it a race. Every year at least a  thousand Malaysian graduated with a biotech degree. Let count it. My batch here in RIT has almost 40 students, and approximately 100+ in the entire USA. I have friends taking biotech in UPM and UIA. I'm not sure about other IPTA in Malaysia, never heard of it but I'm pretty sure they have it. So a thousand make sense isn't it? I've seen many friends that are older than me that majoring in biotech. They surely will be graduating soon.

Joke2, marriage is not one of the reason! Haha

Well, if you said that this biotech was new field, and lots of job opportunities await in the future, I kind of agree with it. But still, in my opinion, whoever come in first into the field, will more likely to be on the top. Or it only applies on MLM only, no I guess. At least from my experience, first come, first serve is the ultimate rule.

Someone is supporting..=P

So it is a race between me and you. Well, I know that Allah knows the best and will decide the very best for all of us. It is just that what can I foreseen by this limited thought was this. A race to get a job and involve in this biotech industry. I also think about a master, and even a PhD, but still I need to get it quick.

Ready, Get Set, GO!

Then, now I am in dilemma, after rationalize my thought to graduate early from RIT, I afraid that I might regret if I take that decision. My bucket list of thing to do in the US still doesn't empty yet.

The truth is, I never satisfied skiing even I had been ski for 2 seasons. I just don't want it to end. I can't imagine if this year will be my last.. I don't have saving to for my future after graduate either. Well, I need it to start an independent life in Malaysia.

Yes, I afraid to leave US land, just because I might not stepping on it again. 

 I never been to several must go places in the US yet. Hey. it's once in a lifetime experience and I don't want to waste it. I want to go to Spain too. I doubt if I can save money by working in Malaysia to go for travel and other 'lagho' thing. Coming to US after going back to Malaysia also might be an impossible mission.

So how?

It might seem my reasons were a bit 'lagho' and for fun only, but that's what make up my life.

After this long rant, I still can't decide what the best is . Sigh! Yes, drive your live is difficult... and

May Allah ease me and you in making any decision. Pray to Allah, He never forget us.

Attention to Blogger and Twitter User; Ini tanggungjawab bersama!

Kalau dulu sorang buang anak, semua nak buang anak..

Bile sorang post cakap dah tak ada dara, sorang lagi post cium mulut dengan BF. 

Oh wait, best sangat ke wey bagitau orang. Mungkin nak kejar populariti kat twitter kot, Dapat jadi top trend kat twitter sapa tak nak. Satu Malaysia kenal. Aku tak rasa benda ni akan stop dekat sini jek. Ke memang kat Malaysia ade 2 orang je sex freak? Mestilah tidak kan. 2 orang sex freak yang telah berani mendedahkan diorang punya aktiviti ni macam seruan untuk other sex freak untuk berani tampil kehadapan kot. Beware blogger and twitter user, ni time untuk tingkatkan traffic korang! LOL

Cinta kepada dunia tak bawa ke syurga! Carilah redha Illahi...

Tapikan, bukan diorang saja yang salah. Blogger dan twitter user  kat luar sana pon salah jugak. Memang mungkin korang tak pengaruhi sex freak  (Cik Adinda Evans or Puteri Shasha) ni untuk tayang-tayang, tunjuk-tunjuk or bangga-bangga kan, tapi tak rase ke nanti benda ni akan melarat sebab populariti dan coverage yg korang bagi kat diorang ni.

Sapa tak nak popular kan, ye dok?
*alamak aku pon da buat coveraga pasal diorg*

Tapi ingatlah blogger and twitter user, traffic korang yang banyak tu tak akan setanding dengan kesan dari coverage korang tu. Lagipun banyak lagi benda boleh tulis kan. Aku okay if some of the blogger komen pasal these sex freaks dari sudut Islamiah dan memberi nasihat. Tapi for those yang hanya komen dan ulas berita tu, nasihat aku, carilah berita lain lagi elok kot.

Kalau korang tak percaya dengan kesan coverage korang sebagai media tak rasmi mahupun media rasmi Malaysia, meh aku cerita satu benda. Aku sekarang blajar kat US, dan ade sekali tu aku pergi ke bengkel kereta seorang pakcik ni. Borak punya borak, die tanya aku pemimpin yang buat kes sodomi tu memerintah lagi ke? Aku punyalah segan, diorang kenal Malaysia sebab ade pemimpin yang ada kes sodomi. Sedap orang kat Malaysia dok berdebat siap bersumpah seranah, orang kt US hanya tahu yang pemimpin Malaysia ada kes. Kat mana lagi diorang boleh tahu benda ni selain internet. Sebab realitinya surat khabar kat sini macam localized dan tak worldwide pon.

So korang paham la kan peranan korang dalam hal ini? Memang nanti korang cakap posting korang dalam BM orang US tak paham, tapi orang Indonesia, Singapore? Or at least orang Aussie yang reti cakap Melayu tuh?

Oke da mengarut habis da!

Anyway, just a little reminder, for those blogger and twitter users out there,just mind your own business and leave those sex-freak alone. I'm not saying this to defend them, but leaving them alone will at least prevent other sex-freak from expose their picture or whatsoever in the future..

Or maybe someone already think to post her nude picture on facebook afterward?I'm not being sexist but people do care  because you are women!

Think people, think!