Berinti Peria, Berselaput Gula.

Satu penipuan jika kukatakan, 

Jahilliyyah itu tiada kemanisan, 

Bahagia dalam setiap tindakan, 

Yang jauh dari landasan. 

Namun tidak aku sedari, 

Manis itu tidak abadi, 

Berteraskan pahit tak terperi,

Hanya bertujuan untuk mengaburi. 

Manis itu sedap kumamah,

Sehingga pahit datang menjengah,

Aku ingin berpaling tadah, 

Dari cengkaman Jahilliyah!

Palingan itu tidak lama, 

Pengaruh Jahilliyah datang semula, 

Tidakku kuat menangkis segala,

Kemanisan yang berganda-ganda. 

Manis itu mahal harganya, 

Walaupun ia hanyalah sementara, 

Kesannya tidak pergi jua, 

Ditambah pahit di terasnya. 

Pahitnya sehingga terduduk!

Tetapi Allah sudah tuliskan, 

Hanya Dia yg berpengetahuan, 

Kenapa aku diberi kemanisan, 

Dan pahit di pengakhiran. 

Cemburu daku kepada si teman, 

Azalinya terpelihara tiada celaan, 

Kelihatan lengkap dari luaran, 

Jauh jahiliyyah sebagai cabaran. 

Aku sedar akan sesuatu, 

Dalaman mereka siapa yang tahu, 

Cabarannya yang tidak menentu,

Mungkin lebih hebat dariku.

Liku pada jalan itu menjadi saksi di hari pengakhiran! 

Perjalanan kita mungkin berbeza, 

Dek perbezaan daya upaya, 

Namun tujuannya tetap sama, 

Pengembalian pada Yang Saksama. 

Selepas refleksi kejadian ini, 

Aku yakinkan akan diri, 

Terdapat hikmah yang tersembunyi, 

Disebalik segala aturan Illahi.

Jahiliyyah memberi daku kanta, 

Disaat mataku rabun membuta, 

Untuk mengenal serpihan kaca, 

Ataupon kilauan butiran permata

Taktala teman sudah berkanta,

Aku masih meraba-raba, 

Namun aku harus redha, 

Sesungguhnya inilah takdirNya!

Kanta itu sungguh berjasa,

Mengajar aku pengajaran berguna,

Bahawa hidup sekali sahaja,   

Oleh itu jangan disia. 

Ukhuwah Fillah!

Tidak juga aku lupa, 

Allah memberiku rakan sahaya, 

Yang datang membawa cahaya, 

Menyuluh jalan agar tidak buta. 

Marilah kawan mari teman, 

Mungkin kita berbeza jalan, 

Carilah kanta dan perhatikan, 

Kaca dan permata dihadapan. 

Wahai kamu temanku, 

Elaklah kaca dijalanmu, 

Kutiplah permata yang beribu, 

Buat berjumpa Allah Yang Satu!

Syukur ingin aku ucapkan, 

Kepadamu Allah ya tuhan, 

Kantamu akan aku gunakan, 

Untuk terus berada dilandasan. 

.

Farhan Syahir

 9 Julai 2012

3:21 AM

Kuantan, Pahang. 

Ilmu.

Akhir akhir ini selalu cakap pasal kepentingan ilmu. 

Ilmu tanpa amal, seperti pokok tanpa buah. 

Quick test: siapa yang tahu translation arab die, sila tinggalkan komen ye!

Ini adalah sesuatu yang kita dengar. Sesuatu yang kita selalu cakap apabila berbincang pasal ilmu. Sekarang mari kita lihat daripada sudut yang lain. 

Cuba bayangkan tika kita ingin menunaikan solat sunat yang tidak pernah dilakukan, tanpa ilmu kita harus merujuk kepada internet ataupun kawan-kawan ataupun scholar. Susunan sumber ini berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri.

Cuba kita bayangkan kalau kita ingin membaca doa saranan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, seperti yang banyak terdapat dalam Al-quran. Kalau kita tak hafal doa itu, then setiap kali ingin membaca kena rujuk laptop, ipod, buku dan sebagainya? Susunan juga mengikut pengalaman penulis.

Cuba bayangkan tika kita ingin ingin mengimamkan solat jenazah ahli keluarga sendiri, tetapi ilmu itu tiada. Mampukah kita menghafal bacaan-bacaan itu ketika mereka sedang dimandikan? Dimana mungkin mata kita berlinang air mata. Terkesan dengan video ini --> {Anak asset ke syurga ke neraka?} 

dan macam macam situasi yang kita rasa ilmu itu TIDAK PERLU kerana amal itu JARANG-JARANG diperlukan.

I don't think I bring the idea well enough, but to make it short..
1. Kita mestilah sentiasa belajar perkara wajib dan perkara sunat didalam Islam. Walaupun kita mungkin tidak menggunakannya sekalipun.

2. Jangan memikirkan bahawa ilmu yang tiada kaitan dengan kita itu adalah worthless. Belajar sebanyak mana mungkin Ilmu di dunia dan ajarkanlah ia kepada orang lain. Jikalau kita mengajar ilmu yang bermanfaat, ia umpana setitik air jatuh diatas sehamparan air yang tenang. Gelombangnya meliputi keseluruhan permukaan.

3. Tanam azam untuk mengendalikan jenazah ahli keluarga sendiri. Jika tidak mampu mandikan, mungkin boleh tolong kafankan, jika tidak reti juga, mungkin boleh imamkan solatnya, jika tidak reti juga, mungkin paling kurang bawa turun jenazahnya. InsyaAllah.

4. Tidak semestinya ilmu yang dipelajari itu perlu diamal immediately. Dulu belajar ilmu seni dekat sekolah, ada sampai sekarang kita duduk melukis? Ilmu yang dipelajari itu meningkatkan pengalaman, mematangkan fikiran.

5. Cara paling senang jika tak tahu ilmu apa yang patut dipelajari. Panggil seorang kawan dan tanya dia "Bagitahu aku sesuatu yang engkau tahu tetapi aku tidak tahu". Seperti contoh, kawan kita jawab dia hafal surah sekian-sekian, jadi kita bolehlah start menghafal surah itu. Tapi kalau tidak mampu janganlah paksa diri pulak! xD

6. Cara kedua: tengok kawan yang rasa hebat sikit, jadikan sebagai bench mark, dan terus berusaha nak kalahkan dia. Persaingan sihat gitu.

Short note: Kalau dah rasa banyak ilmu, silalah tengok video ini.

Rezeki itu 'fragile', Allah itu kekal.

Allah itu Maha Kuasa, 

Kuasa itu tiada bandingnya, 

Menarik rezeki sekelip mata, 

Tiada yang mampu menghalangNya.

Allah beri nikmat berlari, 

Ku pergi sana dan sini, 

Sungguh sombong insan ini, 

Mengucap syukur tidak sekali. 

Kini ku tak lagi berlari, 

Namun kaki masih berdiri, 

Perasaan geram didalam diri, 

Menyalah takdir  Illahi.

Sifat manusia memang begitu, 

Sombong angkuh tidak menentu, 

Tak dihargai nikmat itu, 

Sehingga hilang tak bertemu. 

Allah ambil nikmat berlari, 

Ku mengeluh tak terhenti, 

Mungkin aku terlupa diri,

Nikmat lain yang diberi. 

Aku hanya tidak berlari, 

Itu sudah menggoncang emosi, 

Tidak terpikir dek diri, 

Perasaan orang tidak berkaki. 

Mesti terselit disana sini, 

Hikmah kejadian ini terjadi, 

Walau yang nyata disini, 

Aku tidak lagi berlari. 

Mungkin ku tidak menghargai, 

Sekeliling aku banyak rezeki, 

Aku buta dengan duniawi, 

Tidak teringat dek Illahi. 

Mungkin ini kecil bagimu, 

Namun ia tidak bagiku, 

Sungguh berat kekurangan itu, 

Peringatan buatku dari Tuhanku. 

Tapi Allah ada berjanji, 

Tidak melampau dalam menguji, 

Ku yakin janji Illahi, 

Mampu ditempuh ujian ini. 

Wahai sahabatku yang dikasihi,

Walau kamu hanya memerhati,

Ambillah pengajaran daripada ini, 

Muhasabah diri, syukuri rezeki.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, 

Ku panjat syukur buatMu,

Atas rezeki melimpah dariMu, 

Kepada semua hamba-hambaMu. 

Turn over.

Kalau orang kata malang jatuh bertimpa-timpa

Katakanlah Allah hanya mahu menduga 

Hello Rochester, I'm back!

My father reminded me about this verse just now.

Apakah manusia itu mengira bahwa mereka dibiarkan (saja) mengatakan: "Kami telah beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi? 

Al Ankabut, 29: 2 

Terima kasih kepada Allah diatas ujian ini. Sesungguhnya itu adalah percaturan yang terbaik. I'll do my best!

May Allah ease everything. He knows the best!

See you in the State, Rochester people! InsyaAllah. 

It's a race. Between you and me!

So today, I had a thought to graduate early from RIT. I wrote it on twitter and it became a breaking new! Yes it is. At least 6 friends replied back to me on twitter. Then we had been replying to each other about that thing.

The breaking new! 

 If I graduate early, I can find the job earlier that everyone else in my batch. I called it a race. Every year at least a  thousand Malaysian graduated with a biotech degree. Let count it. My batch here in RIT has almost 40 students, and approximately 100+ in the entire USA. I have friends taking biotech in UPM and UIA. I'm not sure about other IPTA in Malaysia, never heard of it but I'm pretty sure they have it. So a thousand make sense isn't it? I've seen many friends that are older than me that majoring in biotech. They surely will be graduating soon.

Joke2, marriage is not one of the reason! Haha

Well, if you said that this biotech was new field, and lots of job opportunities await in the future, I kind of agree with it. But still, in my opinion, whoever come in first into the field, will more likely to be on the top. Or it only applies on MLM only, no I guess. At least from my experience, first come, first serve is the ultimate rule.

Someone is supporting..=P

So it is a race between me and you. Well, I know that Allah knows the best and will decide the very best for all of us. It is just that what can I foreseen by this limited thought was this. A race to get a job and involve in this biotech industry. I also think about a master, and even a PhD, but still I need to get it quick.

Ready, Get Set, GO!

Then, now I am in dilemma, after rationalize my thought to graduate early from RIT, I afraid that I might regret if I take that decision. My bucket list of thing to do in the US still doesn't empty yet.

The truth is, I never satisfied skiing even I had been ski for 2 seasons. I just don't want it to end. I can't imagine if this year will be my last.. I don't have saving to for my future after graduate either. Well, I need it to start an independent life in Malaysia.

Yes, I afraid to leave US land, just because I might not stepping on it again. 

 I never been to several must go places in the US yet. Hey. it's once in a lifetime experience and I don't want to waste it. I want to go to Spain too. I doubt if I can save money by working in Malaysia to go for travel and other 'lagho' thing. Coming to US after going back to Malaysia also might be an impossible mission.

So how?

It might seem my reasons were a bit 'lagho' and for fun only, but that's what make up my life.

After this long rant, I still can't decide what the best is . Sigh! Yes, drive your live is difficult... and

May Allah ease me and you in making any decision. Pray to Allah, He never forget us.

Niqab

 I always have curiosity when I see women in niqab. Although I might have the intention to see how the face looks like, but there were something that hold back the thought. And she indirectly gained my respect. It might be the beauty of Niqab, for me at least. The reward for such a great deeds that the women with niqab did.

Yesterday I meet a women with niqab during a meeting and turned out she was my junior back in high school. The curiosity risen even more as I might have seen the face before. Despite the curiosity, I respect her for taken a great step in search of Allah blessing. 

By the way, I want to clarify that I don't have any bad intention to her or any other women with niqab yet the curiosity risen make me realize that Allah had make us to be the best of all mankind. It also make me realize how bad my level of submission to Allah. 

Let's change for the better and the best! 

May Allah bless you, Sister.  

Attention to Blogger and Twitter User; Ini tanggungjawab bersama!

Kalau dulu sorang buang anak, semua nak buang anak..

Bile sorang post cakap dah tak ada dara, sorang lagi post cium mulut dengan BF. 

Oh wait, best sangat ke wey bagitau orang. Mungkin nak kejar populariti kat twitter kot, Dapat jadi top trend kat twitter sapa tak nak. Satu Malaysia kenal. Aku tak rasa benda ni akan stop dekat sini jek. Ke memang kat Malaysia ade 2 orang je sex freak? Mestilah tidak kan. 2 orang sex freak yang telah berani mendedahkan diorang punya aktiviti ni macam seruan untuk other sex freak untuk berani tampil kehadapan kot. Beware blogger and twitter user, ni time untuk tingkatkan traffic korang! LOL

Cinta kepada dunia tak bawa ke syurga! Carilah redha Illahi...

Tapikan, bukan diorang saja yang salah. Blogger dan twitter user  kat luar sana pon salah jugak. Memang mungkin korang tak pengaruhi sex freak  (Cik Adinda Evans or Puteri Shasha) ni untuk tayang-tayang, tunjuk-tunjuk or bangga-bangga kan, tapi tak rase ke nanti benda ni akan melarat sebab populariti dan coverage yg korang bagi kat diorang ni.

Sapa tak nak popular kan, ye dok?
*alamak aku pon da buat coveraga pasal diorg*

Tapi ingatlah blogger and twitter user, traffic korang yang banyak tu tak akan setanding dengan kesan dari coverage korang tu. Lagipun banyak lagi benda boleh tulis kan. Aku okay if some of the blogger komen pasal these sex freaks dari sudut Islamiah dan memberi nasihat. Tapi for those yang hanya komen dan ulas berita tu, nasihat aku, carilah berita lain lagi elok kot.

Kalau korang tak percaya dengan kesan coverage korang sebagai media tak rasmi mahupun media rasmi Malaysia, meh aku cerita satu benda. Aku sekarang blajar kat US, dan ade sekali tu aku pergi ke bengkel kereta seorang pakcik ni. Borak punya borak, die tanya aku pemimpin yang buat kes sodomi tu memerintah lagi ke? Aku punyalah segan, diorang kenal Malaysia sebab ade pemimpin yang ada kes sodomi. Sedap orang kat Malaysia dok berdebat siap bersumpah seranah, orang kt US hanya tahu yang pemimpin Malaysia ada kes. Kat mana lagi diorang boleh tahu benda ni selain internet. Sebab realitinya surat khabar kat sini macam localized dan tak worldwide pon.

So korang paham la kan peranan korang dalam hal ini? Memang nanti korang cakap posting korang dalam BM orang US tak paham, tapi orang Indonesia, Singapore? Or at least orang Aussie yang reti cakap Melayu tuh?

Oke da mengarut habis da!

Anyway, just a little reminder, for those blogger and twitter users out there,just mind your own business and leave those sex-freak alone. I'm not saying this to defend them, but leaving them alone will at least prevent other sex-freak from expose their picture or whatsoever in the future..

Or maybe someone already think to post her nude picture on facebook afterward?I'm not being sexist but people do care  because you are women!

Think people, think!

Another Stop...

The 2010-2011 academic year had come to the end. All the good and bad things happened, all challenges that came along, all the pain that followed, all the tears that flowed out and all the laugh that been shouted had thought me many great lessons. Lessons of friendships. Lessons of life.

I remembered the moment where I had to wake up early in the morning on weekdays to go to works with Nadiah. I still couldn't tell where the courage to wake up came from, but it did prove me that wake up early is never impossible. 

I remembered the moment where I had to woke up at 4 am, as my work start at 5. Without Wak accompanied me through that time, I think I never woke up that early. Oh wait, he drove me to work too. Thank you Wak.

Winter Roadtrip!

I remembered the moment where several of us going for a road-trip. I had it twice before, and it was great as a whole. Thank you to all friends that let us stay over in your house. To whoever was in a roadtrip with me, thank you for the memories. It had been great to have a chance of knowing you better.

Fall roadtrip!

I remembered when I had been tested by Allah with several challenges that come one after another. Start with losing job, problem with cars and some others. There were friends that really care, while some others were not. Well, that was their preference though. However, to whoever did care and support me through the time, a gazillion thanks are never enough.

I remembered when I almost astray from the right path and the heart was empty, come several friends and brought things that filled the heart.  I never joined Usrah, even I insisted not to join one before. I hope the bond that we made, will strengthen over time. 

I will miss the time where we struggled for exams. You guys had become the courage for me to study harder, without you knowing it. Special thanks to Nadiah, Wak, Wahie, and Biha. I did put you as a benchmark, and try to get even higher. Let study together again next year!

Bristol, you are missed!

I remembered the winter season, the skiing and snowboarding every week. This season was awesome. Lots and lots of improvement achieved. Thank to RIT for having a wellness class for skiing and snowboarding. Thanks to MARA for paying the tuition fee too.  Oh, I really miss this. To Chot, Amer, Azlina, Nadiah, Sha, let take the class and have fun together next season, ok?

Malaysian Night!

The GU Unification and Malaysian Night were awesome. It was a great experience to work with all of you, members of RITMySA. Let keep the pace and achieve more. We'll try our best for next year, shall we?

GU Unification! We are the winner!

Budu Sedak and Kismis FC was also awesome. I had fun playing with you guys. Lets fight and win in the Midwest next week. 

Budu Sedak FC!

To the graduating senior, you guys will be missed. All of you was awesome, I personally glad with the fact that I come to RIT and meet all of you. All those dances, joy and laugh will not be forgotten. Good luck in your future undertaking and life. For those who are ready to get married, make sure it will be on summer break or after my gradution.=D

RIT class of 2011.

Many Ups and Downs experienced through the year were priceless. Sometimes the challenges were hard to get through  Thank you friend that add the colors to both the Ups and the Downs. =)

Zaman Kegelapan Itu

Allah pernah menduga,

Menguji hati yang lara,

Dengan seluruh perhiasan dunia,

Meniti hari penuh bahagia.

Wang dan juga wanita,

Mengaburi mata sang pemuda,

Hanyut di alam remaja

Persis ombak lautan bergelora.

Tidak tersedar dari lamunan,

Tiada nasihat dari teman,

Yang ada bisikan syaitan,

Mengheret ke alam kemaksiatan

Tidak tersedar sang pemuda

Kebahagian itu hanya sementara,

Yang kekal hanyalah dosa,

Sedia mengheret ke neraka.

Syukur Allah masih menyayangi,

Ditunjuk jalan yang hakiki,

Sang pemuda menginsafi diri,

Memperbetul kesalahan yang terjadi.

Namun ada perkara menghantui,

Perkara lampau menjengah kembali,

Kesalahan yang mustahil diperbaiki,

Hanya mengharap ihsan Illahi.

Hanya maaf mampu mengiringi,

Perasaan sesal diri ini,

Kepada tuan empunya diri,

Maafkan daku wahai saudari

Harapan aku hanyalah satu,

Kepada diri yang lemah ini,

Jangan diulangi kesilapan lalu,

Kerana sakitnya tidak terperi.

Tidak aku menyalah takdir,

Ada hikmah sebabnya hadir,

Mungkin pengajaran disebalik tabir,

Untuk peringatan umat muktahir

Takdir Allah amatlah pasti,

DikataNya jadi, pasti terjadi,

Mungkin buruk dimata ini,

Namun terbaik disisi Illahi.

Kepada sahabat dan rakan,

Aku mempunyai satu harapan,

Tergelincir aku dari landasan,

Taburkan teguran dibiar jangan.

Ukhwah Fillah (credit to Eriq)

 

 

 Wahai Zaman Kegelapan,

Yang penuh godaan syaitan, 

Tidak teringat dek tuhan, 

Pergilah engkau tanpa berteman.

Promised...

I promised myself to be happy every day, every hours, every minutes, every seconds, even every tenth to the second. For whatever thing that happened, I will go through it happily.

Happy enough??

Reminder to self: Just don't be sad for unforeseen reason. Well, it is not happened yet though. Just don't lose your faith.

Well...

Sometimes I am afraid of talking,

because I am afraid I speak louder than my action does.

Sometimes I am afraid to scold people

because I am afraid I doing the same thing over again

Sometimes I am afraid to be happy, 

because I am afraid I might be sad the other time

Sometimes I am afraid to make a decision

because I might regret in the other day

It is what we call life anyway...

Doubtful

I was asked to give some reminder during the Usrah session which supposedly held last night. However, as MySA handled meeting and Yasin recitation, the Usrah might be postponed I guess. As I already prepared the thing to say, I think it is better to share it here. However this post will includes the situation that happen to me, which I planned to not saying it during the Usrah session.

Back in the high school, I learned Islamic Jurisprudence Study. In my own word, I define this study as a study basically on how the rule and regulation of Islam be made. I learned about 4 guidance to determine a law in Islam which is Al-Quran, As-Sunnah, Qiyas, and Ijma'. This topic was among the one that I like the most.

If you remembered I said that I quit my job because of the religious concern is it. I worked at the dining hall that served a non-halal food, which include pork. After working for a while, I read a post on a friend's blog whether we are permissible to work with that thing. I search through the internet and found related post, but almost all of it talk about alcohol. Alcohol is strictly haram in Islam, as reported by Anas (may Allah be pleased with him), that Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said:

"God’s curse falls on ten groups of people who deal with alcohol. The one who distills it, the one for whom it has been distilled, the one who drinks it, the one who transports it, the one to who it has been brought, the one whom serves it, the one who sells it, the one who utilizes money from it, the one who buys it and the one who buys it for someone else."

Al Tarmizi

Then I remembered about Qiyas that I learned back in the high school. It basically comparing two things, between one that is certain it's hukum with the other based on their similarities. I compared alcohol and porks, with the facts that both of them were haram to be eat by Muslim (I do want to find whether I can works with porks or not, which the hukum is not certain by Quran and Hadith).  So, after that, I felt something is not right. However, honestly said, I am afraid to search for the truth, because I am afraid if the truth is it was not permissible to work with those haram foods, I had to quit my job. I told several friends about this, which several of them work at the same place with me. I raised this question in a car during one of the roadtrips, and one of the people inside told me about this hadith.

Narrated An-Nu`man bin Bashir: I heard Muhammad PBUH saying, 'Both legal and illegal things are evident but in between them there are doubtful (suspicious) things and most of the people have no knowledge about them. So whoever saves himself from these suspicious things saves his religion and his honor. And whoever indulges in these suspicious things is like a shepherd who grazes (his animals) near the Hima (private pasture) of someone else and at any moment he is liable to get in it. (O people!) Beware! Every king has a Hima and the Hima of Allah on the earth is His illegal (forbidden) things. Beware! There is a piece of flesh in the body if it becomes good (reformed) the whole body becomes good but if it gets spoilt the whole body gets spoilt and that is the heart.

Bukhari and Muslim

From this hadith, it says that there are halal and haram things that are definite, and in between them was a doubtful. It was mentioned that someone that preserved him/herself from those doubtful things preserves his religion and honor. The hadith also warned us, with an analogy of a king. A king must have his private site ( a site which everyone can't enter). Allah also have it's private site (on the earth), which is the forbidden things. In this hadith it was mentioned whoever involves with the suspicious things is like a sherped with his animal near the forbidden area. This shepherd can't control its animal for not entering the forbidden area once they reaching near it. The shepherd here pictures that how hard for a person to avoid the haram thing (Private site) once you are near it (doing the doubtful thing).

After a while, I still continue to works at the dining hall, accompanied by this thing around my head. Luckily, one of my friend make a move, and ask around about this thing. We were attending a seminar in New Jersey, and she ask one of the speakers, Dr Waleed. Based on what I heard, Dr Waleed said we can works on other department that are not related to pork (i.e: beverages and salad). However, I remembered when I first apply for the job, the supervisor ask me whether it is ok or not for me to handle the meat. I answered yes as long as I wore a glove. I never thought about the hukum of halal and haram at that time. I also had a chance to have a conversation with Dr Waleed, he then left me with a hadith. Hadhrat Ubaidullah Ibn Muhsin (radiallahu anhu) narrates that Rasulullah (sallallahu alayhi wasallam) said:

“He among you who arises in the morning with Imaan, health and sufficient food for that day, should consider himself as being in possession of the whole world.”

(Tirmizi)

At this point, I set my mind to quit the job. I felt bad to prioritize money instead of Allah blessing.  Alhamdullilah, I already quit the job about 3 days ago. I will looking for a better, permissible income, InsyaAllah.  

 Before end this long post ( the longest I ever made), I want to share with you something to be ponder on. It is one of the verses in Al-Quran, which made my whole body hair raised when hearing it, literally. Yes it is! It was when I joined ESQ 165 leadership training a year ago. It was from surah Al-Anbiyaa', verse 30.

Have not those who disbelieve known that the heavens and the earth were joined together as one united piece, then We parted them? And We have made from water every living thing. Will they not then believe?

The malay translation  of it, (give a more impact for me if reading this in Malays)

Dan tidakkah orang-orang kafir itu memikirkan dan mempercayai bahawa sesungguhnya langit dan bumi itu pada asal mulanya bercantum (sebagai benda yang satu), lalu Kami pisahkan antara keduanya? Dan Kami jadikan dari air, tiap-tiap benda yang hidup? Maka mengapa mereka tidak mahu beriman? (Surah 21:30)

English please?

Dear Turkish, 

I know that you can live with your own language, you can't build a develop country with you own language unlike Malaysia. However, now I'm here at your Istanbul International Aiport, can't do several thing that easily been done when you used English. I would like to subcribe for internet here (TTNet Wifi) but I can't do it as I do not understand the instruction. Yes, you provide the subscription page with English translation, but I can't find any in your FAQ page and How To Use page. (I think I got the link correctly. Sorry I Don't understand it). I also can't understand your menu except several familiar word like nugget and etc. I am currently at the international departure hall, so using of English language is proper.. I'm not writing this as to offense anyone, just writing my concern. I been here twice already. 

By the time this post is published, I already leaving Istanbul. Once again, I did not want to offend anyone, but just writing my thought. 

*updated*
I canceled the schedules post and republished it now. I just don't have a good feeling about it before. 

Merdeka...

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia.

I hope the peaceful life here in Malaysia will sustain forever. I am glad to live in this peaceful country, or shall I say physically not in war, but mentally we did.

Try to read the newspaper tomorrow. I did not receive any Early Edition like Eddie( I think I got the name right),  but I predict that there are news about youngster doing something that would not represent them as citizen of Malaysia, which had gained independence 53 years ago.  We are still been colonize mentally by the ego, selfishness, and conservative thinking.

I did not state this without facts. Try to see this album and make your own conclusion. 9 month sharing the same food, blood, and even body, still can't give this mom a brain to think, a heart to love the baby.

I did not state this as a random guess. What should you expect when you hear motorcycle sound from your house at 2 AM in the morning. It's not a normal sound I hear everyday. It just on a special night, like this so called Malam Merdeka

I did not state this to offense the people about my age, but sometimes I felt sorry, to see even my own friend actions.

I also did not state this to say I'm good enough, or did not do anything wrong. Yes, I did many mistakes, and I regret. Even it already late as those will continue to be my dark memory, but better late than never.

I'm not perfect. I just want to remind.
 For me, and for you who may concern. 

Childhood Memories: Lenyap Ditelan Zaman...

Baru-baru ni ada klik satu link dekat FB tentang  Top 10 Things Today's Kids Will Never Experience. Boleh tekan link untuk bace description for each of it. Bawah nie adalah list 10 perkara yang tidak akan dialami budak zaman sekarang. 

• Camera Film 
• Landline Phones 
• Real Books 
• Being Lost 
• Music Videos on MTV 
• Walkmans 
• The Glory Days of Nick at Nite 
• Tan M&Ms 
• Czechoslovakia 
• Arnold Schwarzenegger, the Terminator

Bila baca benda ni, memang aku sedar yang masa ini cepat sangat berlalu. Perkembangan teknologi jugak amatlah pesat. Aku tertarik untuk ulas sebahagian daripada benda-benda ni. Hanyalah untuk suka-suka dan membuktikan aku masih anak kampung. Actually kid yg dimaksudkan adalah budak-budak zaman millenium yang lahir pada abad ke 21 ini. 


1. Camera Film. 
Budak budak zaman sekarang hanya kenal kepada kamera digital sahaja. Kamera yg guna filem ni mengajar kita banyak pengajaran. Kalo guna kamera ni, kita haruslah membayar harga yang besar untuk mendapat peluang kedua. Kalau kamera digital, dengan single click, gambar yg tak lawa boleh dibuang. Kamera filem?, kesalahan itu akan kekal dan menyebabkan kita lebih berhati-hati untuk snap yang lain.  

Mana nak taw tgh nangis ayah aku tangkap kan, tapi tak boleh delete or repeat daa...
So, tersematlah gambar menangis ini dalam Album selama hampir 17 tahun. 

Guna kamera filem ni juga suruh kita bersabar, bukan boleh view terus, kena tunggu cuci, dan baru boleh tengok. Kamera filem jugak ajar kita erti menghargai. Kita kena simpan gambar yang diprint tu se elok eloknya sebab harga yang mahal untuk sekeping gmbar. Filem kodak dan kos nak print jadi 4R punya gambar, memang agak mahal untuk zaman dulu dulu. Jadi kita kena hargai  setiap keping gmbar. Dan akhirnya, budak-budak zaman sekarang tak ada gambar-gambar old school macam dibawah :-

Melaka, 1995 kot...

SKT 2002...

2. Landline phone.
Di Malaysia, aku rase benda ini tidak ketara, tapi disebabkan article atas tu adalah US based(kalau tak silap aku), tu sebab tersenarai tuh. Tapi tidak mustahil benda ini akan berlaku di Malaysia dalam beberapa generasi lagi. Handphone sudah pandai digunakan oleh budak seawal umur 7 8 tahun. So memang dalam beberapa generasi, Telekom Malaysia mungkin hanya boleh mengharapkan keatas subcription internet streamyx sebagai sumber pendapatan utama. Dan Celcom Maxis Digi juga patot bukan hanya mengadakan Upax, ataupon School of X, tapi Kindergarten Promo pack mungkin. 

Model first HP aku, RM250 uoolls...
Gambar ihsan Google..

Aku hanya dapat phone lepas PMR. Tu pon beli duit ayah aku bagi lepas dapat result PMR. Tapi mungkin zaman lagi maju, adik aku dapat phone waktu form 1 lagi. Tu hanya beza 3tahun. Tapi, ramai jugak kawan aku yang xda landline phone. So mmg terbukti yang dalam 2 3 tahun lagi, memang budak-budak tak akan kenal apa yg kita slalu panggil sbgai "telefon rumah".


3. Real Books. 
Ini mungkin dirasai budak zaman sekarang. Dulu kalau belajar nk UPSR, guna DIDIK keluaran berita harian, Setiap hari selasa, kena beli Berita Harian ngan cikgu, harga 70sen. Sebab harga didik tu je actually. Lari topik sikit, tapi nk cerita gak pasal didik nie. Aku dulu kalau hari rabu 2 waktu sebelum rehat, memang muka yang akan kena rotan then duduk luar kelas. Sebabnya, didik tak siap section BI. Boleh kata rutin mingguan aku da. Pasal real book, memang agak mustahil budak sekarang nak rujuk encyclopedia nak taw something kan. Kalau yg reti internet, wikipedia adalah sources terbaik. Google pon sama. Aku dulu nak buat sinopsis cerita Timulak Kapal Perang, abis satu buku aku salin balik then print. Tapi sekarang, kalu google pon aku percaya akan jumpa yang da siap. Boleh copy paste. 

Ada tak budak sekarang cari word dalam kamus berjemaah macam 2 org ini?

Lagi satu, dictionary. Dulu siap cikgu buat lumba sapa dapat cari perkataan dalam dictionary dengan cepat. Sekarang, Wordweb memang jadi rujukan aku, even adik aku pon guna wordweb nak tahu maksud perkataan. Sekarang ini ada satu lagi trend, MLM yg jual SKOR A. Ni macam jual latihan berkomputer untuk anak-anak, then mak ayah boleh cek prestasi online. Mana hilangnya cara lame, buku latihan, pen merah, pembetulan sebelah soalan,? Semua hilang ditelan zaman. 


4. Walkman
Ini pon dulu menjadi kegilaan waktu time aku dulu darjah 5,6 dulu. Sapa yang ade walkman time tu memang macho r lebih kurang. Aku dapat walkman mak aku beli lepas aku UPSR, dekat Mydin kalo tak silap. Then kaset rembat je mana mana kaset dalam rumah waktu tuh. Tapi akhirnya aku sedar memang aku tak da bakat dengar music ni, sebab at last walkman aku da tak kluar bunyi pape, tapi still aku tak sedar. Konon dengar walkman sambil baca buku macam awesome, tapi last last aku bace buku sambil ignore walkman. Oh! nerd disitu. Haha.

Walkman aku dulu bentuk macam nie, tapi jenama cikai, bukan sony okeyh...:)
Ihsan Google. 

Tapi kalau budak sekarang, Sony Walkman, model hanset tu mungkin diorang kenal. Walkman kaset tu, memang da tak kenal kot. Dengan MP3, Mp4, Ipod dan macam macam option yang lagi kecik dan murah, memang walkman lesap ditelan zaman. Aku pon dapat pegang ipod waktu aku kt intec, tgok ade membe pakai ipod touch. Itu first time aku tengok product apple depan mata. Amat kampung disitu. 


5. Arnold Schwarzenegger, the Terminator
Dia ni first time aku dengar nama waktu pelakon lagi, tapi zaman-zaman aku sekolah jugak la die naik jadi governor California tu. Waktu tu badan die tuff n fit, sekarang macam dah tak jek. Mungkin da masok era-era tan sri kalau kawan kawan aku paggil. Nak tahu ape era tan sri, itulah zaman kegemilangan perut membesar. 

Then and Now
Sources

Cukuplah review 5 benda nie, itu je yang aku rasa menarik untuk dikongsi. Haha. Lagipon aku mana jumpa M&M or cerita The Glory Days of Nick at Nite. Untuk Malaysian, mungkin kite boleh tukar M&M dengan gula 20sen yang kalau beli dapat cincin tu. Sapa ingat? Dan kalau cerita tu mungkin boleh tukar dengan Senario, ataupun Sinaran Passport Kegemilangan. 

Dan lagi satu, sapa ingat biskut ni,

Oh biskut gula keras dekat atas, I miss you...=(

Ini memang biskut yang craving gile, amat sedap tapi sekarang macam susah nak jumpa jek. Agak-agak budak zaman sekarang suka lagi tak biskut nie? Akan aku cari biskut nie before pergi US, nak bawak pegi sane sekali. Haha.

30 days of Summer

I just have another 30 days of summer in Malaysia.

Melaka trip was another success. May us will have another wonderful trip in the future.

Ramadhan is coming in 9 days. It also means that I'll be leaving Malaysia sooner. 

To be exact, I'll be leaving in exactly one month from now.

Another day to spent in Malaysia is increasingly precious time because I really don't sure whether I am going back or not next year

The second time to celebrate Eid in USA. It's a bittersweet. However, much bitter than the sweet though. 

I gained another driving experience. Accident. By the way, it's just a minor one. 

Prelude is now back in action. My Asus laptop too.

I forgot the facts that BenQ laptop and Asus laptop have the same type of power connector. That cost me a month and a half without a laptop.

Should be more patient next time. Thinks first.

I still can't accept the fact that you lied to me. Yes, you are. Even you don't admit it.

Just a word to remember. A thousand reasons can't hide your lie. Neither erase it.

Sometimes there are things that worth to be remembered. Sometimes it isn't.





Footnotes: I found a  new style in writing the blog which is writing it in a short sentence. Did it seems to dull or it just ok? Opinion is needed. Thank you in advance.

The truth is...

Summer in Malaysia is not that bored when you have your family and friends around. Enjoy.

Responsibilities matured us. Work.

Older people know more than you think. Listen.

Making a decision for entire lifetime is hard. Choose.

Family and friends are worth to love than a lover. Love

Moving on is not an option, it's a must. Go.

Experiences teach us. Learn.

The risk for success is failure. Be strong.

We can't stop dreaming. Sleep.

God is true. Believe.

God is The Greatest and The Forgiving. Pray.

Clocks never stop. Run!

Time can solve problem. Just gives 'time' time. Be patient.

Good time will never stay forever. Remember.

Yesterday is clear,

Tomorrow is near,

But today is here,

Put yourself on gear.

sugguh trharu...

sugguh terharu hari ini tgok rumate aku tulis blog pasal aku n membe2 sebilik
smpaikan tertdo di ats laptop sendiri.
tpi malangnya gambarnya tidak boleh disiarkan atas sebab sebab kemanusian
tpi ak cukup menghargai adanya rumate yang macam ini
tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa BELIAU tersangatlah bersungguh sungguh untuk menulis tentang ak dan membe2 sebilik yang lain dengan penuh semangat yang jitu serta jiwa yang kental.
namun akhirnya beliau tewas dek godaan nafsu tidur tepat pada pukul 1 pagi taktala laptopnya masih menyiarkan dan memaparkan tulisan dan nukilannya yang menyentuh hati di skrin laptop itu.
sebenarnya beliau masih mahu meneruskan penulisannya itu, namu beliau tidak berjaya mengharungi dan menempuhi halangan mata dan nafsu tidor.
namun ak tidak menyalahkannya kerana aku yakin beliau akan terus menyambung post itu kepada edisi yang ke-2.
aku menunggu dengan penuh sabar dan berhemah untuk membaca blognya itu.

sekian sahaja sifat terharuku untuk diluahkan di sini..

kepada BELIAU...
pergilah tdor dahulu, nanti-nanti lah sambung blog post itu.
sekarang dengan mataku yang 2 ini, ku dapat melihat beliau tdor di atas katil itu.
akhirnya beliau telah mendapat tmpat tdo yang elok, bukanlah berbantalkan laptop.
walaupon selalunya benda yang mahal selalunya benda yang bagus, namun, laptop yang mahal tidak semestinya bantal yang bagus.
eloklah anda pergi mydin beli bantal dari tidor di atas laptop anda sndiri.

no progress at all!!

yeah..
still no progress..
i still not complte what i had not done las week..
essay...nope
driving class...i went to the class this morning...but just an hour...


the big, the most importnt, the highest priority are the ESSAYS....
but y i still to lazy to done it..?
doesnt touch the essay since went to cndana for sat..
it had been bout 3 weeks...huh

I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!
I BETTER CHANGE!!


can I??
hope so...

thing to do...
harap2 jadi r..
1. jge kaunter lpas nie...dh lme dh ponteng nie..
2.bwat essay 2..
3. get the P licences,,,


that for now..
gtg...