Redhaku Dimulut atau Dihati?

Tika diberi satu nikmat, 

hamba Allah tidak teringat, 

Itu hanya satu alat, 

Untuk menguji persedian Akhirat. 

Pelbagai perkara aku lalui, 

Pelbagai pelajaran aku dapati, 

Namun tiada ibrah yang mengikuti, 

Perjalanan hidup sehari hari.

Sifat manusia memang begitu, 

tidak akan menghargai sesuatu, 

Sebelum hilang tidak ketemu, 

Menyesal pula tidak membantu. 

Ingin aku ceritakan, 

Kisah aku kepada teman, 

Agar menjadi suatu pengajaran, 

Bukan niat untuk perhatian. 

Pernah aku suatu masa,  

Tidak bersujud buat seketika, 

Batasan fizikal yg tidak disangka, 

Sungguh membuatku cukup kecewa. 

Tidak mampu diri ini, 

Menyembah bumi menyeru Illahi. 

Baru mngetahui nilai sejati, 

Nikmat sujud kepada Illahi. 

Kadang kala kita alpa, 

Semua nikmat tuhan yang punya, 

Kita anggap kekal selamanya, 

Diambil mudah dan sambil lewa.

Mari kawan kita semua, 

Hargai nikmat yang kita ada, 

Terutama keluarga yang tercinta, 

Sekali hilang tiada gantinya. 

Keluarga itu nikmat Illahi, 

Yang harus kita syukuri, 

Jangan dibiar sekali kali, 

Sementara masih bernafas dibumi.

Bayangkanlah wahai para teman,
Tanpa keluarga memberi sokongan, 

Mampukah kamu mara kehadapan,
Menghadapi liku liku kehidupan?

Wahai ayah dan ibuku,
Tidak mampu kubalas pengorbananmu,
Walau setinggi gunung usahaku,
atau seluas lautan ikhtiarku. 

Kepada ayah dan ibuku, 

Ingin aku kucupi tanganmu, 

Berterima kasih kerana menjagaku, 

Memohon ampun kerana khilafku,

Kakak dan adikku yang diingati,
Walaupun apapun yang terjadi,
Jangan sesekali pertalian darah ini,

 Diputus dirobek sama sekali. 

Mungkin aku tidak sempurna, 

Menjadi anak lelaki yang berguna, 

Namun akan kucuba sedaya upaya, 

Agar menjadi manfaat bersama. 

Sungguh demi Allah yang satu, 

Aku sayang akan keluargaku, 

Janganlah ditarik nikmat itu, 

Namun takdir itu milikMu.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, 

Takdirkanlah yang terbaik untukku, 

Sesungguhnya aku antara hambaMu, 

Yang sentiasa mengharap kepadamu atas setiap sesuatu. 

Ya Allah, jika ini takdirMu, 

Aku terima ketentuan itu, 

Kerana aku yakin akan janjiMu, 

Inilah yang terbaik bagiku. 

Ya Allah Ya Rabbi,  

Jadikanlah redha dimulut ini

Tersemat kental didalam hati, 

Supaya ku yakin mengabdi diri.

Sekian saja coretanku ini, 

Sekadar luahan dimalam hari, 

Ambillah ibrah yang dijumpai, 

Tinggalkanlah khilaf yg tersembunyi. 

Of Cruelty and Inner Me

I am standing in front of the tree,

Looking at the hive of the bee,

Trying hard to sneak around the leaf,

To reach the top and be free.

There is a time of the dark,

Where I was afraid to try my luck,

Crossing the road in NYC,

Without looking left or right to see.

There is a hand on the opposite side,

Waving left and right calling for me,

The face was unclear and blurry

Drive the curiosity all over me. 

In need to quench the thirst of curiosity,

I was about to cross the car sea,

Until there is whisper that say to me,

There’s nothing there actually.

If it was just me, nothing will happened to the knee,

Nailed straight down to the earth by destiny,

Freeze out by the wind of the city,

I’m surrounded by the thirst of curiosity.

Suddenly there is force that pushed the back,

The next time I realize, I was back on track,

With adrenaline rushed through my throat and neck,

I cross the road without looking back.

I look around to find the force,

That helps me to go through the course,

Nothing out there that resemble the force,

Except for me of course.

It could be me,

The inner me,

To push the threshold,

Of man and humanity.

The success is near yet far,

Block by the bee in the middle of the war,

Discourage every patriot that doesn’t pass the par.

Of self esteem, courage and everything in the jar.

Hey my inner me,

Lets climb this tree,

So that we could be happy,

Living out of this cruelty.

Salam Aidilfitri.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Harap dimaafkan kekhilafan diri andai terkata, terusik, terkutuk, tersinis dan bermacam macam lagi ter!

Ada satu kekecewaan raya kali ni,
virtual communication seems to overtake the social interaction.

Come on people, lets celebrate raya wirelessly!

Will be in the States in 4 days!

Berinti Peria, Berselaput Gula.

Satu penipuan jika kukatakan, 

Jahilliyyah itu tiada kemanisan, 

Bahagia dalam setiap tindakan, 

Yang jauh dari landasan. 

Namun tidak aku sedari, 

Manis itu tidak abadi, 

Berteraskan pahit tak terperi,

Hanya bertujuan untuk mengaburi. 

Manis itu sedap kumamah,

Sehingga pahit datang menjengah,

Aku ingin berpaling tadah, 

Dari cengkaman Jahilliyah!

Palingan itu tidak lama, 

Pengaruh Jahilliyah datang semula, 

Tidakku kuat menangkis segala,

Kemanisan yang berganda-ganda. 

Manis itu mahal harganya, 

Walaupun ia hanyalah sementara, 

Kesannya tidak pergi jua, 

Ditambah pahit di terasnya. 

Pahitnya sehingga terduduk!

Tetapi Allah sudah tuliskan, 

Hanya Dia yg berpengetahuan, 

Kenapa aku diberi kemanisan, 

Dan pahit di pengakhiran. 

Cemburu daku kepada si teman, 

Azalinya terpelihara tiada celaan, 

Kelihatan lengkap dari luaran, 

Jauh jahiliyyah sebagai cabaran. 

Aku sedar akan sesuatu, 

Dalaman mereka siapa yang tahu, 

Cabarannya yang tidak menentu,

Mungkin lebih hebat dariku.

Liku pada jalan itu menjadi saksi di hari pengakhiran! 

Perjalanan kita mungkin berbeza, 

Dek perbezaan daya upaya, 

Namun tujuannya tetap sama, 

Pengembalian pada Yang Saksama. 

Selepas refleksi kejadian ini, 

Aku yakinkan akan diri, 

Terdapat hikmah yang tersembunyi, 

Disebalik segala aturan Illahi.

Jahiliyyah memberi daku kanta, 

Disaat mataku rabun membuta, 

Untuk mengenal serpihan kaca, 

Ataupon kilauan butiran permata

Taktala teman sudah berkanta,

Aku masih meraba-raba, 

Namun aku harus redha, 

Sesungguhnya inilah takdirNya!

Kanta itu sungguh berjasa,

Mengajar aku pengajaran berguna,

Bahawa hidup sekali sahaja,   

Oleh itu jangan disia. 

Ukhuwah Fillah!

Tidak juga aku lupa, 

Allah memberiku rakan sahaya, 

Yang datang membawa cahaya, 

Menyuluh jalan agar tidak buta. 

Marilah kawan mari teman, 

Mungkin kita berbeza jalan, 

Carilah kanta dan perhatikan, 

Kaca dan permata dihadapan. 

Wahai kamu temanku, 

Elaklah kaca dijalanmu, 

Kutiplah permata yang beribu, 

Buat berjumpa Allah Yang Satu!

Syukur ingin aku ucapkan, 

Kepadamu Allah ya tuhan, 

Kantamu akan aku gunakan, 

Untuk terus berada dilandasan. 

.

Farhan Syahir

 9 Julai 2012

3:21 AM

Kuantan, Pahang. 

Summer Updates!

1. Finally the ACL had been fixed after 9 month. What's left is another 9 month recovery for soccer again.

2. Oh wait, ski? Maybe on March or April, or no at all. We'll see.

3. Now the intensive physiotherapy seems to progress well. I can walk again within a week. Maybe faster than everyone else in that physio gym.

4. The physio is not a simple thing though. Its better not to do the operation if you are lazy for that physio session. It's time consuming and boring, unless you get a good and "happy go lucky" groups like mine!

5. The Medterm progress was so slow. I'm glad I drop Online writing seminar. Can hospitalization be the reason?

6. I might not do the practical with that UIA lecturer though. It will be difficult if I went to physio thrice a week, and 2 days for practical?

7. Oh wait, the thumb seems unfixable. Another deform eh. hurmmm...

8. Need to start losing weight real soon. Or I might stuck at this heavyweight without having chance to lose it anymore.

9. The niat is there, but the motivation is gone! Or maybe I should create one. O Allah, ease me to continue my niat.

10. Finally, Kuantan after 2 weeks! It's been a long week though.

11. Need to get some serious thing to do, or I'll be distracted with lagho thing for the whole holiday. I need something serious and legit.

12. It's been a while since the last Usrah.. I started to miss them.

13. I always do something halfway! I'm not forgetting it, just delay it for later and never do it. That's me. Oh I dont like it at all though,.

14. This rambling was written on the last night on the hospital bed and it's 2 am already! Good nite!

Random Question!

Setting: in the car on the way to K-town
Background song: we are young

*silence* and suddenly...
Abah: Where's your girlfriend?
Me: No, i dont have one
Abah: How about secret admire?Admire?
Me: I don't have it too..
Abah: really, no secret admire??
Me: I would lie if I say no kan? Haha
Abah: Well, i was a student too.
Me: Hehe...



terkejut dapat soklan random out of silence. Haha.


Parent's instinct! :)

It's been awhile

It's been a while since the last post.  I think it been 2 month already. Many things had happened but I'm just to lazy to write about it. Lets see what I remembered..

Genetic Engineering
This was the best class ever. Awesome lecturer, materials, classmates and last but not least lab partner! Haha. The lab was overrated by seniors before as it does not as intense as described. Anyway, I admit it require more works than any other class. But its fun! or wait, maybe the fun blew the burden away and makes it looks easy! idk..

Lab Melayu

MySA
We had our Malaysian Night as usual and it might be the last ever Malaysian Night at RIT. This year was the least fun one, but we managed to pull out quite a good show. I said it was the least fun as the Malaysian Night failed to build unity among the members, different from the past 2 years. Maybe there are holes and edges that need to be fix. Anyway the people who came did enjoy the night! At least one objective was achieved. Good job everyone..

Finale!

MSA
I would say I had so much fun being part of MSA. Working in groups of people with very different background and work ethics was a nice experience. It was unique. I left the eboard with a heavy heart. Everybody is leaving as well for another greater commitment. 2 of us becomes president of others clubs, 2 become part of GU and one become Senator for SG. We had the sentimental moment in the last meeting, and it was sad. We did argue and fight before, but at the end we wished nobody will ever leave. All the best for the new eboard! I'll help when needed.

See how unique we are!

Class of 2012
Congratulations to the seniors and some from my own batch for your graduations. Hope you guy enjoy the grad night! Haha. Anyway, good luck in the future and keep in touch.

Class of 2012!

Presidency!
Oh yes, Malaysian Night means the end for the MySA eboard. I run again for presidency and I won! Its not something to brag about but it is a challenge. I just want to develop skills while I got the chance. Its not sacrificing fun of final year doing MySA stuff as some people might says. I'm still new and lot more to come!

New eboard!

Oh btw, I wished I already graduated! Mix feeling.

Lastly: Malaysia in 10 days! Yeay!

Farhaini.

Somebody asked me today,

"Why you looked so happy all the time. No problem at all, or new girlfriend or what?"

First, yes I smile all the time because thats what my name means, Farhan = Happiness. How I can't be happy if everybody is calling me that? It is a dua right?

Ust Salahuddin called me Farhain during the spring break. Double the happiness, double the smille! :)

Secondly, no girlfriend. I tell you, it is not worth it. It is a total waste of youth life, at least for me. Depends on the 'intention' at the first place though.Well it worth to think about marriage. That's permanent. Haha. Well only time can tell.

Third, Problems? I got a lot. Anyway, a lot is subjective. Well, how to deal with the problems matters. I even can't walk properly, but I know there is somethings lies beyond that disabilities.

Fourth, life is too short for trivial stuff. Without we realize, the closest things that will happened to us is death.  A scheduled journey without itinerary. I don't easily takes thing personally just because it just a waste of the emotion.

Fifth, the surrounding is just awesome! Awesome families, friends and community as a whole. I just love it. This niche is the best that I can dream for!

Anyway, it is important just to reflect on what are the things that is happening in our daily life. The difficulties is a test, but the ease is a greater test for us. Don't be arrogant on what we have, and don't be downgraded on what we don't have. Yeah, it is easy to said than done. But this are the key thing to be remembered. InsyaAllah happiness will follows if we really do this kind of things.

Happiness do not defined by money, it does not define by wealth, it is also not define by how many friends do you have. Happiness is inside feelings that you feeling satisfied with life.

Last week halaqah, we talked about how we should find a 'hikmah' for everythings that happened. It does not suppose to be bad things, it also can be a good things.

Without the hikmah, we tend to easily give up on Allah. We also tend to forget Him when we are at ease. Allah says in Surah Al-Fajr 

This things just come across my mind several times, to reflect what happened in life recently. Within 3 months, things change dramatically I guess. Anyway, lets not turn backward but shoot forward towards Mardhatillah. 

All in all, we just need to remember everything was set the way it is because that is the best plan from Allah. If one of us had difficulties, and others earns a fortune, it just because that is the best plan.

This is the best booster ever. Given by my dad, on the most depressing time, last year.

P/s: Tahniah to Abby!

February Updates!

1. The winter quarter is reaching it's end. 3 weeks more and I'm done! It the most busiest and challenging quarter so far.

2. Study, clubs, events, and works keep me busy for the past couple of weeks. I almost forgot that I just got back from West Coast a month ago.

3. In a serius need of vacation. Or at least a weekend getaway.

4. It's snowing outside! At last snow shows up after a while.

5. Ski seasons this year is not as good as last year. Not much snow plus injuries, I don't enjoyed it to the fullest. Anyway, InsyaAllah I will have another chance to ski next seasons if everything goes well.

6. Oh I just realized Province handled 2 'makan-makan' for the past 2 weeks. Well, luxury house is it? Haha

7. Homework are getting to pile up. Without a weekend this gonna be a disaster.

8. Announcement: I'm going back in June! Well, I'll definitely not happy with the facts that there is no more summer for me. Well, who knows what will happen in the future, is it?

9. I've been working on a new project for the blog. Lets take it to the next level. But I don't know when it gonna be done. Lets have the teaser first then!

Allah said in His Say,

He is the one who knows the way,

That keep you from astray

To save you in resurrection day!

10. Till then, good bye!

Ski!

Musim salju masih malu malu untuk menampakkan dirinya!
Anyway awesome ski trip last Tuesday! I'm gaining back my speed but with cautious this time.
I'll be back to Malaysia and fix the knee, InsyaAllah.

Ilmu.

Akhir akhir ini selalu cakap pasal kepentingan ilmu. 

Ilmu tanpa amal, seperti pokok tanpa buah. 

Quick test: siapa yang tahu translation arab die, sila tinggalkan komen ye!

Ini adalah sesuatu yang kita dengar. Sesuatu yang kita selalu cakap apabila berbincang pasal ilmu. Sekarang mari kita lihat daripada sudut yang lain. 

Cuba bayangkan tika kita ingin menunaikan solat sunat yang tidak pernah dilakukan, tanpa ilmu kita harus merujuk kepada internet ataupun kawan-kawan ataupun scholar. Susunan sumber ini berdasarkan pengalaman sendiri.

Cuba kita bayangkan kalau kita ingin membaca doa saranan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, seperti yang banyak terdapat dalam Al-quran. Kalau kita tak hafal doa itu, then setiap kali ingin membaca kena rujuk laptop, ipod, buku dan sebagainya? Susunan juga mengikut pengalaman penulis.

Cuba bayangkan tika kita ingin ingin mengimamkan solat jenazah ahli keluarga sendiri, tetapi ilmu itu tiada. Mampukah kita menghafal bacaan-bacaan itu ketika mereka sedang dimandikan? Dimana mungkin mata kita berlinang air mata. Terkesan dengan video ini --> {Anak asset ke syurga ke neraka?} 

dan macam macam situasi yang kita rasa ilmu itu TIDAK PERLU kerana amal itu JARANG-JARANG diperlukan.

I don't think I bring the idea well enough, but to make it short..
1. Kita mestilah sentiasa belajar perkara wajib dan perkara sunat didalam Islam. Walaupun kita mungkin tidak menggunakannya sekalipun.

2. Jangan memikirkan bahawa ilmu yang tiada kaitan dengan kita itu adalah worthless. Belajar sebanyak mana mungkin Ilmu di dunia dan ajarkanlah ia kepada orang lain. Jikalau kita mengajar ilmu yang bermanfaat, ia umpana setitik air jatuh diatas sehamparan air yang tenang. Gelombangnya meliputi keseluruhan permukaan.

3. Tanam azam untuk mengendalikan jenazah ahli keluarga sendiri. Jika tidak mampu mandikan, mungkin boleh tolong kafankan, jika tidak reti juga, mungkin boleh imamkan solatnya, jika tidak reti juga, mungkin paling kurang bawa turun jenazahnya. InsyaAllah.

4. Tidak semestinya ilmu yang dipelajari itu perlu diamal immediately. Dulu belajar ilmu seni dekat sekolah, ada sampai sekarang kita duduk melukis? Ilmu yang dipelajari itu meningkatkan pengalaman, mematangkan fikiran.

5. Cara paling senang jika tak tahu ilmu apa yang patut dipelajari. Panggil seorang kawan dan tanya dia "Bagitahu aku sesuatu yang engkau tahu tetapi aku tidak tahu". Seperti contoh, kawan kita jawab dia hafal surah sekian-sekian, jadi kita bolehlah start menghafal surah itu. Tapi kalau tidak mampu janganlah paksa diri pulak! xD

6. Cara kedua: tengok kawan yang rasa hebat sikit, jadikan sebagai bench mark, dan terus berusaha nak kalahkan dia. Persaingan sihat gitu.

Short note: Kalau dah rasa banyak ilmu, silalah tengok video ini.

Good Bye 2011!

InsyaAllah, with Allah blessing, a year had passed. With that, its means we are one year away from the Dunya, and a year nearer to the Death. Allah says, “Every soul shall taste death”. This is our ultimate destiny, a fate that certainly will come to every single soul, on time. As the time passed by, we shall reflect ourselves on things that we had experienced. All the experiences are wasted if we still on the same spot a year ago.

In school, we learn the lesson and get tested, but in life, we get tested and learn the lesson

Looking back the past, so many things had happened over the year. When I tried to remember it again, the series of event was the best sequence that I can ever imagine. Subhanallah. Let us start the highlight of my 2011.

January!

This month is when I was working so hard to collect the money for Europe. Waking up every day early in the morning, sometimes at 4.30 am for work somehow proved to me that everything is possible. You just have to have courage and goals to do those. The ski seasons also started this month, and we go ski every week! I miss that moment! This year might not be as much ski trips as last years, and also without Jaei and Hussin. Oh wait, Chot admitted to hospital because of concussion on the first day of class also should be noted! Haha.

February!

This month was a long month. I got terminated from one job and quit another one. It kinda hard to lose half of my income in a month, with the fact that Eurotrip already been planned. I survived the month though. Next, we won GU unification for the second time. It was a great performance yo!

March!

I bought a new car, and the car broke down about two weeks later. That was a hard time, but with great friends around, I can get through those. Anyway, the car just play hide and seek. After I abandoned the car for two weeks, it run perfectly. Maybe Allah just wants to test us.

April!

Malaysian Night! It was an awesome night. After struggling and go through conflicts, we made it! And we got a standing ovation at the end of the show. Thanks for those who came. The ski season also ended in this month. It’s kinda late for the year, but it bought me more time to play ski last season!

May!

That almost the end of the academic year, which means, the senior are gonna get back for good soon! We threw them a graduation night and it was a memorable night indeed. You guys are awesome! Then we went to Midwest in Wisconsin, and Budu Sedak lost all the matches! That’s fine, lets try it again.

RIT class of 2011

June!

This month, I lost my car again! I tried not to think about it again anyway. And finally the Eurotrips had come! It was a memorable trip with Nad and her parents, As, and Sha. Not to forget Canada and Newcastle Teams. We went to 8 countries in about 20 days. Its teaches me a lot, and cost a lot too. However it is worth it though.

Exclusive picture just for this post
This is what actually happen during the last summer. 

July!

I was in Paris on my birthday! Then thanks for a “6/14 slices” cake from Nad, As and Sha! I went back to Malaysia and start working as usual. I became a Facilitator for a program in my high school and from that event, I can reflect myself 4 years back and who am I right now. At least I can feel that I’m growing up.

Europe!!

August!

Nothing much happened. It was fasting month for us, Muslim. And we celebrated Eid on the 31^st. I had such a great time during the Eid. It was a big celebration. And I just found out I was in 24^th cousins out of almost 60 in my father’s side. Now imagine how chaotic our Eid was?

Half of us! 

September!

I had an injury on the first day on September. I tare my ligament and going back to the State with crutches. Oh I ask for wheelchair in JFK too! Nothing much had happened. Fall quarter started and the subjects were awesome. I like those.

October!

We bought a new car and hopefully my last car for the rest of the study here in RIT.  Nothing remarkable happened in the month though.

November!

I end the Fall quarter with flying colors! Thanks to Allah. Fall roadtrip to Boston was also awesome. I had ‘great time’ spending my money during Black Friday! It was a nice way to end the Fall seasons.

Brown U!

December!

I started my December with Mara’s Talk in Penn State. The talk is not thing that I want to mention about, but the Broomball game in one of the night was awesome! I hope RIT do have broomball. The winter quarter started for 3 weeks and stopped for break! And now here am I in San Francisco on the New Year’s Eve. Muktamar in Las Vegas and roadtrip for a week, FTW!! Updates are available soon!

West Coast!

 *picture will be updated soon.